Publish What You Feel, I Shall Bottle Mine

I am drowning in the pool of their insecurities
So often voiced, I cannot find the right moment
To speak and what's more, to scream in anger
And angst, why did you choose me?
I wallow in the pool, my insides are disintegrating
From your words of sadness and sorrows and your soliloquies 
Of how his love left you and how its stabs your heart 
Like you have stabbed mine so many times by locking me away
I sit like there is a wall between us, and there is a small hole
I can see your face, but somehow you cannot see mine
You do not notice the empty stare on my face, my blank expression
Which seeks to show you that all hearts break and all people hurt
And we are so young and this is so not worth it
But you continue to talk, and talk, and talk, and talk
And I tell you, 'please, learn from this' 
But you don't learn, you just keep doing the same thing
Over, and Over, and Over.
And I wonder when life will grace me with all the love you have felt
And when life will steal it from me so I can sit in front of you
And force you to swim inside of my pool of sadness and soliloquies
Of men who never deserved the time, but we gave them the clocks
So you could see how it feels
So you could see how it feels 
To sit in silence while I waste my words
And let you know how much we seem to think the world revolves solely
Around us.