Write About Something That You Fear

I have a fear of disappointing myself. I have very high, sometimes unrealistic, expectations for myself. The fear of disappointing myself ties in directly to my fear of the future. I hate admitting that I fear the future. Fearing the future makes my stomach upset, it makes my eyes water, it makes me clench my teeth. I anger myself because I fear the future. I'm not supposed to fear the future. How can I fear something unknown? It's the fear of not knowing. The fear of not knowing what will happen to me, the fear of not accomplishing those things I want to accomplish, the fear of getting a bad grade, something so little and so petty, the fear of not doing well. But yesterday, today was the future. And today, I'm doing just fine, and I didn't know that yesterday. Maybe we fear things that way we can experience comfort when it turns out okay.